Why its wise not to live in small town...

especially the town you grew up in. I was out on my lunch hour today, the town has city-wide rummage sales, being the bargain hunter than I am and as a way to kill a lunch hour, I stopped at a few, while its inevitable that I run into people that I know, its also inevitable that I run into someone who gives me that 'I just want to throw up on your feet' feeling.

This girl I graduated high school with just happened to be the recipeint of this feeling today. She was always Miss Popular and actually she was a really nice girl, just spoiled and uppity, you know the type, since we graduated from high school (which is a while a go but still a relatively short time) she has been married 3 times!! That's right, she's on her 3rd husband, no kiddos with hubby #1, hubby #2 she had twin boys and another boy. Now hubby #3 is at least 15 years her senior, we're talking late forties maybe early fifties, assuming since she has married an older man and already has 3 small children the last thing I expected to see when she turned towards me was a big ol' preggo belly, but that's just what I saw...there she was with her youngest boy oooing and aaaaing over the little girl clothes that were for sale, apparently she's having a girl this time, it took all Ihad to muster a response when she said hello. There are times when I wish I had one of those teleporters like they used to have in Star Trek, I would have beamed myself right the heck out of there. Man wouldn't that be great! Wait, I take that back, I would have stayed and beamed her preggo butt out of my sight! Instead, like always, I hang my head, not needing any of the adorable baby clothes she is so interested in, I head back to my empty, lonely car.

So I've finally figured out how to post my TTC journey on the right of my blog, it only took me a few months....I must admit I may just be as technology challenged as I am reproductively challenged.

Nothing new in ttc land, nothing much new at all. Its tax day!!!!! Can we get a big Wahoo!!!!!!! I will finally be able to get back to all of my work duties that get neglected during tax season, I've got a stack of filing on my desk taller than my computer - yikes!!

I've really been thinking hard about refinancing our mortgage, borrowing some more money against our house and stashing it away in case we need to do IVF.......we've got a lot of equity and if we decide not to do it, I can always pay it back....I just can't decide, I really wish I didn't have to make decisions like this. I am just SO scared that I will spend $15,000 that we don't have and have nothing to show for it. It might be the riskiest decison I've ever had to make, probably why I only talk about it and never do it.

Weather is still cold and crappy here, the grass is slowing starting to green up, maybe spring is in sight after all. I sure hope so, this has been the longest winter I can ever remember.

That's all for now, now that tax season is over perhaps I will have a little more time to blog....even though I have nothing to blog about :)