Waiting....

First I have to apologize for my random unorganized posts, I try to do this between tasks and therefore my posts are disjointed and rambling.

Not much going on in my world, I'm patiently waiting for tax season to be over (3 weeks to go, thank the Lord!!)

I'm patiently waiting for spring to really arrive. Its seems all I do is wait, wait for the weekend, wait for ovulation, wait for AF, wait for the next party or vacatation....waiting for my 'life' to really begin. I have always felt that my real married life wouldn't begin until we had children. Right now I feel like we are just stuck in those almost dating like days, like we won't be a real permanent family until we have kids. After 8 years you'd think I'd get over that.

I need to work on living for the moment, living today for today, not just as a means to get to Friday. Is is that I have so little going on in my life that the biggest thrill is the weekend? Sadly I think that might be true.

We've been working like crazy on the lake house we are helping dh's parents build. We are getting really close to having the inside done, I've been focusing on shades, blinds and curtains for the past two weeks, its odd to obsess over something other than TTC, but it feels good. I'm 'patiently waiting' for the snow and ice to melt up there so we can be outside and enjoy the fresh air and the sight and sound of the water lapping against the shoreline in front of the house. I am so looking forward to getting back out on the water, its one place dh and I are truly happy. When we sit at home in our empty house, its just a reminder of what we don't have. When we're on the water, we're free, we're happy. So we wait...